Spoken Poetry: My Creative Expression

20 09 2011

Well, some of you who have ever followed this may have wondered about the title of the blog, “My Creative Expression.” About two years ago I began dabbling in a non-traditional area of art: spoken and written. I have not really shared much of my written work, but I have begun to dip my toes in the waters of spoken poetry. I was exposed to it by a forensics (speech and debate, not CSI) teammate in college and began writing some samples a couple months later. I competed once at a poetry slam in Springfield, MO but was unable to continue competing due to my busy school schedule. However, I’ve continued to work on some pieces here and there, and lately I’ve been able to perform a couple of my own poems at my church as well as someone else’s piece at our Easter service.

So, what’s my creative expression? This blog is simply an outlet for me to creatively express myself: thoughts and beliefs as well as some of my art, unconventional though it may be. Thanks for your support. Below I have posted a couple links to two of the poems that I have written and performed. I decided not to upload them directly to my blog so as to save money (hey, what can I say?).

Decisions (September 17-18): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3uQAsHXrvk

Voice of Influence (January 29-30): http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u6ybu8-6kQM





A Prayer…

5 09 2011

Lord Jesus Christ, pierce my soul with thy love so that I may always long for thee alone, who art the bread of angels and the fulfilment of the soul’s deepest desires. May my heart always hunger and feed upon thee, so that my soul may be filled with the sweetness of thy presence. May my soul thirst for thee, who art the source of life, wisdom, knowledge, light and all the riches of God our Father. May I always seek and find thee, think upon thee, speak to thee and do all things for the honour and glory of thy holy name. Be always my only hope, my peace, my refuge and my help in whom my heart is rooted so that I may never be seperated from thee.

-Bonaventure, 1217-74





A Forgotten Call: Art in the Church

20 08 2011

Art is a nebulous and mysterious entity.

And often, as the Church, we just don’t really know what to do with it. Where does it fit? Does it have any practical value? What is its purpose?

To answer these questions, I want to examine a passage from the book Simply Christian by N.T. Wright:

“What I want to propose…is that the church should reawaken its hunger for beauty at every level. This is essential and urgent. It is central to Christian living that we should celebrate goodness of creation, ponder its present brokenness, and, insofar as we can, celebrate in advance the healing of the world, the new creation itself. Art, music, literature, dance, theater, and many other expressions of human delight and wisdom, can all be explored in new ways.

The point is this. The arts are not the pretty but irrelevant bits around the border of reality. They are highways into the center of  a reality which cannot be glimpsed, let alone grasped, any other way. The present world is good, but broken and in any case incomplete; art of all kinds enables us to understand that paradox in its many dimensions. But the present world is also designed for something which has not yet happened…. Perhaps art can help us look beyond the immediate beauty with all its puzzles, and to glimpse that new creation which makes sense not only of beauty but of the world as a whole, and ourselves within it. Perhaps.”

Even now I am struggling to express in words the place of art in existence and, more importantly, in the church. We often see art as mere entertainment and nothing more: visual pleasure, sonental charm, phonetical bliss. But it is so much more.

Art is worship. At the very least, it ushers us into a state of worship. Through beauty we see God. And even when art highlights the world’s fallen nature, we can still drop to our knees before the Restorer, the One who will finally overcome this world and finish the work he began on the cross two thousand years ago.

Thus, art is that blessed medium in which we can look at reality in its current state of existence (the beautiful with the ugly) while simultaneously straining our eyes ahead to that glorious Paradise, heaven on Earth, God with man in a world made right.

And that is something the Church would do well not to neglect.

So what are your thoughts? What do you see as art’s role in the church?





A Pitiable State…

21 07 2011

I was sitting in Starbucks this morning. I do that a lot. Not always at Starbucks, mind you, but I’m a BIG fan of coffee, so you could easily find me in one of several such places most mornings: Starbucks, Seattle’s Best (except Borders is going out of business!), Sacred Grounds (I don’t tell them that I also sip at a corporate chain), Artisan Bread, or my apartment living room.

So, I was sitting in Starbucks this morning. I was sipping coffee, reading in the book of Luke on youversion.com, browsing a magazine, thinking, and praying. And I was getting ready to start writing this blog post on something unrelated to my current topic.

Then this guy sits to my left. I say “hi” and ask him how he’s doing. He’s an older guy (later I find out that he’s seventy; I didn’t think he was that old). And he starts telling me about how he likes to get out of his house where it gets lonely. Apparently he’s been divorced for twenty-five years and doesn’t have much contact with his two children that each live nearby. That hurts.

But he’s a talker. That’s for sure.

Then he asks me what I study. That was after he had spent some time bashing religion. I respond politely that I’m studying theology. So he appears apologetic for a brief second but rapidly recovers his embittered stance on faith.

I wish I could say that we had a positive discussion/dialogue. Honestly, it wasn’t much of one.

I interject a few times during what he would probably coin a “sagacious soliliquy” but what I would rather term a “civil tirade” against the injustices caused by the church, the methods of control used by religious leaders throughout the centuries, and the silliness of the supernatural. I bite my tongue on more than seven occasions, and as the blood swirls through my clenched teeth, I continue to smile. I wish I could say that I had more pleasant thoughts.

I can’t say that I disagree with many of his extreme examples, though. Yes, religious leaders have been power-mongering and money-extorting since the beginning of time. After listening to his input for about an hour, mingled with my feeble attempts to give a balanced view to his concerns, I shook his hand and left.

Whew! Glad that was over (okay, not really… I actually enjoyed our rather one-sided conversation).

So then I was driving to church, reflecting on my encounter. The thought passed my mind, This guy deserves whatever he has coming to him. I felt as though he was blinding himself to reason (yes, I used the word “reason”… a bit ironic, huh?) and that he would end up reflecting on a wasted life. Sadly, I felt vindicated by my faith because at least my life has meaning (even if at the end of my life it turns out that God is merely a cosmic hoax).

That wasn’t a very Christ-like thought.

Then I felt pity.

Then I felt ironic.

Because he probably felt pity too.

But for me.

Weird.





somewhere between Right and Wrong and Left and Right

13 07 2011

The following are some thoughts that prepped a series done in the Spring of this year at CRAVE, the college ministry of Metro Community Church. Don’t worry; I too wrestle with this area. Also, I should note that I owe much of these ideas to USC professor of philosophy, Dallas Willard.

We live in an interesting time. Of course, the writer of Ecclesiastes noted that “nothing is new under the sun,” but if nothing is new then we could expound by saying that “things are just as bad as ever.” We live in a world mired by evil where human suffering is the norm. We see pictures and videos and hear stories, and some of us have experienced first-hand the atrocities of dehumanization: starvation, malnutrition, genocide, rape, racism, and other calamities. Throughout history we have witnessed various programs and reforms ultimately fail because the problems still exist “just as bad as ever.” And the rallying call today is still one of revolution—revolution of social and political schemes meant to free humanity of its shackles. Now don’t get me wrong; I am a strong supporter of social justice and liberating humanity from its oppression. In fact, social justice is rather popular these days—not to minimize genuine care for others—but it is even a bit “trendy” if you will. We see social justice issues in the forefront of pop culture with stars such as Angelina Jolie and the nearly god-like status of Bono from U2.  And we see social justice as a sort of brand for the “hipster” culture (yes, I’m a bit of a wanna-be). Of course, social reform is often placed on the political left while some in the far right would claim that the answer to human suffering lies with a sort of rigid moralism—”don’t cuss; don’t chew; don’t go around with those who do”—and traditional family values—no elbows on the table; remember “please” and “thank you”. In fact, Christians are notorious for creating a dualism between the sacred and the secular, between good and evil. Our worldview is an “us versus them” mentality in which everything labeled “Christian” is good while everything that doesn’t sport the “Christian” brand name is considered evil. But neither the right nor the left will truly work.

Social reform definitely takes a bite out of humanity’s needs, but on an individual level it leaves people unchanged, directionless, purposeless, and unmotivated. And on the other hand, a strict moralism may fool some people who buy into the Christian brand, but it ultimately falls short because it can never measure up to its own standards of holiness. In fact, Christian novelist Alexander Solzhenitsyn made an absolutely profound statement when he said that

“…the line separating good and evil passes not through states, nor between classes, nor between political parties either, but right through every human heart, and through all human hearts. This line shifts. Inside us, it oscillates with the years. Even within hearts overwhelmed by evil, one small bridgehead of good is retained; and even in the best of all hearts, there remains a small corner of evil.”

Basically, what he is saying, and what I want everyone to understand is that evil is an issue of the heart. And if we want social revolution or if we want moral revolution, then it begins with a transformation of the individual heart—in your heart and in my heart. Dallas Willard, in his book entitled The Spirit of the Disciplines, notes that “even though the church’s track record for solving social and individual ills may not appear historically outstanding, we believe that it holds the only answer—still.” He then goes on to mention that Christianity can only succeed as a guide for current humanity if it does two things: “first, it must take the need for human transformation as seriously as do modern revolutionary movements.” The problem with modern heart transformation is that we don’t usually take it seriously. This is our current understanding of godly living: try to be holy, but if you’re not, well, thank God that you’ll be better when you get to heaven. We don’t see godly character as very probable or practical. However—and this is equally aimed towards myself—we must pursue heart-change with just as much intensity as the social revolutions of history. And the pursuit is, indeed, a revolution of the heart. The second key to success, according to Willard—and we would do well to agree—states that Christianity must “clarify and exemplify realistic methods of human transformation. It must show how the ordinary individuals who make up the human race today can become, through the grace of Christ, a love-filled, effective, and powerful community.” And here is the most profound thought: I believe that each and every one of us can experience true heart transformation to become Christ-like by doing this simple thing… following Christ. Now, before you condemn me for oversimplification and wearying you by leading you to a rather disappointing climax, let me extrapolate. We must not simply follow Christ, or at least our versions of what follow-ship is; we must instead follow him in his overall lifestyle. The truth of the matter is that Jesus’ life was one of preparation and connection with his Father. He did not enter the public ministry until he was thirty years old and even then he could be seen escaping to solitary places and performing various other methods of training for his rugged lifestyle. So if we want to follow Jesus, we have to do what he did.

like praying, fasting, seeking solitude and silence, listening, reading Scripture.

Genuine follow-ship leads to heart transformation. And only heart transormation can save the world.

Are we ready for a revolution of the heart?





New Beginnings (grace.)

6 05 2011

  

~Honestly, I thought my blog days would be over. Everyone is blogging, and what are my noiseless little clamourings against the backdrop of banging, clashing, and clanging in blogdom? However, as I was reading the blog of a friend of mine who is in Korea right now, I realized how much I simply enjoyed the task of sharing a few, insignificant insights from a young 20 Something. So, if you’re reading this, thanks! And if you’re not… well… this is still healing for me.~

grace. rebirth. renewal. start over. refresh. new beginnings. spring.

Don’t you love Spring? In fact, isn’t it amazing how nature itself follows a cycle of death and renewal? It’s as if the concept of Grace is hard-wired into every level of existence. After the long decay of Autumn (a magnificent beauty indeed!), the post-Christmas winter months seem to drag on and crush us under the weight of bleak skies, as if the bony branches of bare trees were slowly wrapping around us and dragging us to the grave (okay, maybe that’s a bit exaggerated). If you’re like me, January and February are the worst months of the year. But lo! the clutches of winter are always defeated–every year–as Spring blossoms forth! The sun, the flowers, the green; it’s brilliant!

grace.

Or perhaps you’ve noticed it when you wake up in the morning. Seldom am I so poignantly reminded of Grace as when I lay in bed after waking in the morning. Yesterday could have been horrible. I may have blown it a million times.

          but

                today is a new day.

grace.

And so I thought it appropriate to begin the new year (about 4 months overdue) with a post that has a little bit to do with green grass and beautiful flowers and blue skies and cool streams and sunshiny mornings but has everything to do with GRACE. I would share more, but I don’t wish to bore you; suffice it to say that God has been teaching me a lot about this topic, and he is re-shaping my heart in miraculous ways. I have grown, sprung up from the ground you could say, in ways I didn’t think possible.

And so today, wherever your Road is taking you, grab hold of Grace; don’t leave home without it. Look at the Spring landscape and know that amidst chaos and pain, God has your best interests at heart.

grace.





2010 in review

3 01 2011

The stats helper monkeys at WordPress.com mulled over how this blog did in 2010, and here’s a high level summary of its overall blog health:

Healthy blog!

The Blog-Health-o-Meter™ reads Wow.

Crunchy numbers

Featured image

A Boeing 747-400 passenger jet can hold 416 passengers. This blog was viewed about 7,400 times in 2010. That’s about 18 full 747s.

In 2010, there were 24 new posts, not bad for the first year! There were 58 pictures uploaded, taking up a total of 65mb. That’s about 1 pictures per week.

The busiest day of the year was January 21st with 335 views. The most popular post that day was DSCF3660.

Where did they come from?

The top referring sites in 2010 were facebook.com, metrocommunitychurch.com, harrisshappenings.blogspot.com, healthfitnesstherapy.com, and dating-online2u.blogspot.com.

Some visitors came searching, mostly for gloucester cathedral, blarney castle, imago dei, blarney castle ireland, and cliffs of moher.

Attractions in 2010

These are the posts and pages that got the most views in 2010.

1

Ireland April 2010
5 comments

2

My Newest Adventure January 2010
9 comments

3

A Closed Book. A Closed Mind September 2010
3 comments

4

About July 2009





Finally, a new post (a change in thinking).

3 12 2010

Hey followers! Thank you for bearing with my lack of posting throughout this Fall. With Mom’s surgery I have been intentionally absent. Your prayers and support to my family have been an incredible blessing. God is good! It’s hard to remember this fact in the midst of busyness and, at times, desperation. We want God to intervene in epic proportions on our time. But over and over again he proves that his timing is best.

Well, as I get back into the swing of things, I’ve decided merely to copy an entry out of my journal dated November 22:

I have been speaking to friends lately about our need to quit placing God at the center of our lives but instead place our lives at the center of God. Instead of bringing God into all we do, we need to bring all we do into God. Basically, it’s a shift from focusing on me to focusing on God. However, it just occured to me that this may be difficult to do if we have a false sense of what God is doing. God is not writing a story of moralism (though obeying his commands is extremely important); he is writing a story of redemption. By placing all I do into God, I am setting myself as an essential character in his redemption narrative. If, however, I simply “bring God along” in my individual life, I am trying to fit him into my story–and this greatly limits God’s power and my potential.

I hope to explore this idea further, but these are the initial thoughts that made their way onto paper. I believe we need a shift in our thinking; I’ve heard the phrase over and over again, “Bring God to your workplace,” or “Bring God into your home.” As if God can be brought anywhere! This may sound like a subtle difference, but I believe the ramifications are great; what if we brought work and family to God? This becomes an invitation for coworkers and relatives to enter God’s narrative instead of God stooping and squatting, trying to fit into ours. How about we finally place ourselves in God’s story, the one that has been weaving its way in and out of history regardless of our feeble attempts to direct the story ourselves.





A Closed Book. A Closed Mind

11 09 2010

 

“Books are the quietist and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers.” Charles W. Eliot

“Properly, we should read for power. Man reading should be man intensily alive. The book should be a ball of light in one’s hand.” Ezra Pound

“How many a man has dated a new era in his life from the reading of a book.” Henry David Thoreau

“I am learning all the time. The tombstone will be my diploma.” Eartha Kitt

He who refuses to read refuses to grow. We read to better understand the world around us. We read to gain ideas. We read so that thoughts and teachings can tear into our soul, slowly chiseling our character and defining our potential. The knowledge of the universe rests at our fingertips, meets us at the turn of a page. Our greatest fantasies pour forth, word by dripping word. Life’s most painful tragedies steal our attention through epic memoirs. Once we fall into the world of a great author we never resurface unchanged.
 
So what’s in a book?

heroism, puzzles, life, honor, philosophy, strife, love, God, reason, desire, truth, wisdom, struggle, guidance, comfort, courage, passion, mystery, delight, suspense, laughter, pain, affluence, influence, secrets, treasures

Hope.

The topic of reading is one that I am intensely passionate about. I do not suggest that people who dislike reading and don’t enjoy books are to be judged or looked down upon. However, I fully believe that a strong correlation exists between knowledge and influence. Knowledge is gained through learning. Learning is gained through books. Think about it. We have available at our discretion the wisdom from the past five thousand years of human history! But a closed book cannot be utilized. And a closed mind is a tragedy.

Books represent so much more than mere symbols on a page. They represent arduous processes of human spirit pushing (sometimes mere shreds of) intelligence out of the mind and onto a document so that wisdom, however small, might be preserved as a legacy to mankind.

Now, I understand that not everything that rolls off the printing press is worth reading. There is some real garbage out there. But I also believe that there is a story, or a memoir, or a history, or a business ethic, or some other form of writing to strike the chord of any heart. One must simply search. And when she finds it, she must never, never, let that go. Because

“There is no mistaking a real book when one meets it. It is like falling in love.” Christopher Morley

 

 

 

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How about you? What is a great book (or books) that you’ve fallen in love with?





an unstoppable force against injustice

22 08 2010

This weekend at Metro Community Church Pastor Paul (who is my dad for those who weren’t aware) is speaking about the Church being an unstoppable force to battle injustices throughout the world. Metro has its hand in several justice projects including child sponsorship in El Salvador to support the needs of impoverished children and a water filter project to provide safe drinking water to various communities worldwide. Now, as a Christ-follower, I unapologetically support the ministry of spreading God’s Good News of grace and redemption. But how can we ever reach our maximum level of influence unless we turn our attention to the outsiders, the forgottens? Scripture makes it clear that we are to break the chains of injustice. This idea is echoed as a poignant plea to God in Brooke Fraser’s song ‘Hosanna’: “Break my heart for what breaks yours!” Should that not be our cry as well?

Many of us feel that our contributions are small and useless. But our gifts, though frail and crude, in sincerity can combine to create a rich mosaic that represtents the very heart of God.

Now, if you don’t know me, I like to filter life through artistic devices, so below I have posted a passage from Charles Dicken’s Oliver Twist which eloquently portrays the plight of the outcast.

“Oh! if when we oppress and grind our fellow-creatures, we bestowed but one thought on the dark evidences of human error, which, like dense and heavy clouds, are rising, slowly it is true, but not less surely, to Heaven, to pour their after-vengeance on our heads; if we heard but one instant, in imagination, the deep testimony of dead men’s voices, which no power can stifle, and no pride shut out; where would be the injury and injustice, the suffering, misery, cruelty, and wrong, that each day’s life brings with it!”

So what will it be? How can we play our part in stamping out pain in the world?








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